Posted for two straight days! Wow! Hahahahahahahaha. I am pathetic, okay.
I actually have been calling myself pathetic a lot these days. I don’t know, it’s true, I guess.
Soooooo. There’s this guy. I’ve known him since we were kids. Like, 6 or something. Since then, he was the “heartthrob” or what you would call a kid whom a lot of
people kids had a crush on. I was one of them, actually. Hmm. But that doesn’t matter. I can’t even remember my first grade days. Hahahahahaha.
This guy, let’s call him boy fhore (lol, remember my last post? She was the girl fhore. I am friends with a lot of fhores, huh?). Fhore actually stands for famewhore. I made it so as not to be obvious and my friends liked it so we used it. Hahahaha. So boy fhore, well, he claims he likes me. Lol. I appreciate his efforts, his the-girl-I-like-is-materialistic-I-guess-and-she-loves-food efforts, but efforts, nonetheless. But sometimes, me just being me, I can’t help but think that he doesn’t really like me in that way. Why? Idk. I just don’t trust anybody. I don’t trust my friends telling me he genuinely likes me. I don’t trust him telling me he genuinely likes me. Haha. Trust issues? Hmm. That’s what I tell them. But i do not think so.
It’s actually because of his inconsistency. Yes, he buys me gifts (and expensive ones haha) and food, but really, he’s so inconsistent. Like one week before he’ll be so sweet and so caring and stuff and the next week? Well, it’s like I don’t even exist! Really though? And it’s like the latter week, this week. He hasn’t even liked my profile picture. xD
Another thing is, well, he is a famewhore. And you know I hate famewhores. It’s just so stupid. Why would you wanna be famous by being such attention thirsty? Ew. He’s actually at the top of the social ladder already, but idk, he doesn’t seem to be contented. This way that I think about him, he doesn’t know. And I prefer to stay that way.
Thirdly (and I think lastly), HE IS SUCH A FLIRT!. [Well, I'm kinda flirty too, not as much as him though!] That’s another thing why I do not trust him. When he says charming things and stuff, I just can’t help thinking if he already said that to other girls. And really, flirting. In front of me. Really.
Also, sometimes, when he ignores me, it’s like he’s angry at me with something but I don’t even know what I did wrong! It’s like he’s the girl in this
sometimes. LOL. Ugh. Whatever.
And it’s an issue whenever we discuss the trust part. But how can I trust him when every single time I walk out of my comfort zone, he does stupid things and stuff that makes me, idk, pissed? Then, I walk back in my zone again.
In a few times I complained about stuff I dislike about him (that hurts my feelings loljk), he always manages to turn it all back unto me! Like I’m the one who did the fault! Ugh. Really.
Seriously though, I do not know why I still like him. After everything I hate about him, I still like him. I want to NOT like him so badly, but I just can’t do it. I really don’t know. I’m confused.